Hi peeps.
I decided to continue using this blog.. dont feel like change..
It has been 2 days since i broke up with him..
Missing him very much..Thinking of him every sec..
Crying so loudly for 2 days when no one is at home..
Ytd im crying or shouting i dont know.. but i know it's loud..
The pain in me just remains the same.. i know time heals evrything..
And it has just been 2 days.. But i really dont wanna leave him..
Heard him cry breaks my heart even more.. neither of us want to let go..
But i want to lighten his burden..i dont know if it helps..i guess not..
Cox im adding the pain..Seriously i should not have listen to the whoever fiona..
I should not have made a rush decision..I regretted..The pain is almost unbarable..
Every min every sec..Memories and him just flash up..With him around..
Wo zhen de hao xinfu..I dont know what can i do to make him believe it..
No matter how much i tried or say..He just wont listen..Saying that he is heartless..
But no..he did all this cox he think for me..some ppl may think that he is just fooling you..
But i dont even give a damn..i trust him..which idiot that likes to fool ppl will stay so long in a r/s.
He is just so different..Think for me..not for his own..asking me not to be good to him..
wo ai de bendan zhen de shi bendan..Serine jie came to my house today..zilian-ed..
but the smile on my face is so fake..i just cant forget him..
--Jie thanks for coming up to pei me..(: but i just love him so much i really cant let go..you know the pain im suffering now right? (: i bet he is too..but still thanks ^^--
--Meihua..thanks for being there to hear me cry and stuff when you are working..comforting me and stuff,,you all did your best..but im sorry i cant give him up..i said he is the only one and yes he is gonna be the only one i wanted..--
--Shihui dar..thanks for cheering me up and give me the support..to wait for him to finish his olvl..and woo him back..hahas..ta shi wo de..ta shi wo de!--
--Leeshan..thanks for calling and stuff (: cheering me up too..i know its my prob and you all cant do much or say much cox i wont be listening..but thanks (:--
--To my beloved baby..i finished your present..i bought acash waiting for you to pei me..but..this happen..i really want you to know that i am really happy..the happiness you gave to me..i swear..you are not making me suffer by staying with me..but leaving does make me suffer..i want to tell you! i will not be better if without you..cox in my heart deep down in my heart my whole heart is you..and wo ren ding ni shi wo zhe bei zi de zui ai..the one i wanted to be with the one that i want to marry too the one that i will love forever..i know we are still young and saying to marry each other is abit ridiculous..but..you are really the guy i wanted..you are the guy..good or bad..it's still you..rmb you once told me the good one is dead? so im telling you i love you..no matter what..--
(: so yeah! i decided to wait though he told me not too. His words are harsh and cold..but i know he said that just to make me give up..1year9mths..it not fake..i know him well enough to trust him totally..i know him well enough to know which sentence he saying is real or fake..i know im making the right decision..he is the one im waiting for..not others..but him..my first and last love (: i may continue crying cox my heart hurts but i will never give him up..
OKAY! Pictures time (:
And here we are again, another end;Monday, February 01, 2010 7:18 PM